Cataclysm Beta was interesting, and i had fun playing a premade Mage, which was surprising. I did feeel the beta was behind schedule, and the fact that the feedback tool was broken for most of it, and many changes caused an inability to play for existing characters lead me to feel it was one of the messiest beta's i've been part of.
Much of what was to go into Cataclysm either got dropped, or is getting patched in later. It's been released quite incomplete, unbalanced, and untested really. But this is the pattern Blizzard continue to follow. Nevertheless it got me back to playing more and i was having fun playing again.
My guild were always capping XP, so we stayed at the forefront, behind only those that got a bit of extra XP in before cap reset on the morning after release. My rep quickly became the highest in the guild, which naturally i felt proud of.
We were making progress on raids, and i had lead a few of the new kills myself, which was fun to do again with existing tactics that were still iffy or missing.
Sadly, a lot of the issues from before as an officer were still there, and due to a lack of involvement of officers when i tried to push for us to make decisions ahead of the release, pretty much nothing had changed. There were a few run-ins too of officers acting on their own decisions or making decisions amongst a small number of themselves. I ultimately had enough one day and decided to resign.
Nothing changed after i resigned, and i criticised an officer for acting selfishly and excluding guild members unfairly in as polite a way as possible. I recieved a barrage of personal abuse from two people -- one who is a constant issue for people, and the other who has expressed a disliking of my arrogant attitude -- which i did my best to rebute, for trying to looking out for the silent voice those who were mistreated.
I was then told i had upset the officer, which i make no apologise for. It was the second time they acted that way, so it needed to be addressed. In private, i was spoken to be the oldest of the officers in PM, where i eventually put all the issues the guild faces that i've had insight into and have had expressed to me in private from members.
The guild was too big, cliques were forming at the expense of others while being supported by officers, many people in the guild didn't get along, many in the guild don't even know the rules, the officers don't even know and haven't decided on the rules, the officers don't communicate with the members well, the officers are seen as ineffective and inactive, tpeople feel unable to speak up through the voices of the more outspoken and don't understand where they stand on their rights to do so, members are disatisfied and unhappy but stay because they don't know what to do, and ultimately the guild is about ready to implode.
I left my PM stating that i no longer would voice my opinions.
I came home and logged in for a Raid two days later, to find i was kicked and banned from the forums. With a game-mail pretty much saying "Sorry it had to come to this". It's great to see what happens when you try to help.
So i've lost all my guild rep, my guild perks, all the pets and items i was due to get, the chance to explain my side and say goodbye to all the friends i made, to play with my friends again, and every bit of work and time i put in to helping the guild and helping individuals. Works couldn't explain how disgusted, disappointed, depressed, angry, and upset i was at that point.
Time hasn't really been able to mend most of those wounds, especially with changes Blizzard make over time that make it harder and longer for me to ever get back to where i was.
I have been considering two different guilds to apply to, but i've also been considering trying again with Temporal. I know some people from Wraiths and Strays have expressed an interest in leaving and joining me wherever i end up, but i'm really not sure. On one hand it will be seen as me poaching and cause further rifts, on the other they truely are unhappy in the guild and want to go elsewhere, so why shouldn't i try to help them out. :/
In the mean time, i'm doing a lot of WoW related things beyond playing, and sighining over the state of Hunters again.
Right now i'm still just depressed over the issue, facing a lot of reinvestment, and logging in each day takes a bit out of me. Hopefully i'll find a new home and have friends to enjoy the game with again soon enough.